Sunday, 28 December 2014

2014; a year to remember, treasure and learn from

2014 has been a year to remember, to treasure and most importantly, to learn from.

You know when people cheesily exclaim, 'this is going to be my year' and everyone inwardly groans and gives a look of utter disgust, yeah well, I feel like that's been me (I know, sorry). This year has been pretty great, in fact, it's been my best yet.


I've grown - and unfortunately, at 5'3, I don't mean in a physical sense, but I have in that way where you begin to 'find' you. Who you want to be, what you want to do, where you want to find yourself in 3, 5, 10 years time.

Its cheesy and it's slightly 'scoffable'(I'm 97.9% sure this isn't a word but I believe it should be and thats the end of it). I get it, I know it is. 'Finding you' - GOD, give it a rest and pop a few of those pills designed to chill, but I don't care. I LIKE IT. Something I've learnt this year - to not be ashamed of enjoying or embracing or liking something, simply because others may laugh. Whether it be getting too excited about books and politics, to enjoying wine with good friends, to preferring a cup of tea and my bed instead of going out and having cheap vodka spilt down you and attempting to hobble into a taxi at 3am, I've decided. I've decided life is too short to do things you don't want to do if you don't have too. So I don't. Simple.


I also got a job. Not something down the local pub(not that there's anything wrong with that) but I feel, a good job. A great job for a 19 year old student. It's influenced what I want to do with my future, with my career and it's helped me. In writing hugely, in PR significantly, and in realising students really do lead a life of pure laziness, despite what we may deny.

I became more interested and engaged. In politics, current affairs, feminism. In the world, in writing, in media. I developed wider and more informed opinions on important things, not what that girl said to that other girl last week which was so totes ridic.


However, it was by no means perfect. I still worried and ran my mind ragged overthinking every little thing, questioning why I said that then, or what they thought of me when I did this then. I still found myself getting sucked into a world of bitchiness and gossiping. But there was progress and that's all you can hope for. In a world where young women are living in an increasingly pressurised bubble, a little bit of progress in the right direction, with a splash of positivity (and prosecco) and a dose of happiness (and chocolate), is a year lived well.

I mean I'm not and never will be Beyonce, which kind of kills me a little inside but I am slowly (beginning) to accept that...

But I'm becoming increasingly happy and content with myself, who I'm becoming as a person and what I'm achieving.

I'm definitely ok with that.

Cheers 2014, you've been a little diamond.

3 comments:

  1. That's awesome that 2014 was the year you found you, however cheesy that is. Becoming happy and content with yourself is such a wonderful feeling, especially when you acknowledge that actually you're not totally happy all the time, and that you still do things you probably shouldn't because thats real life and accepting that is important in enjoying life :D

    Emma x
    Writing Essays With Wine

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  2. Such a lovely post. You sound like you have more sense of who you are and who you want to be that when I was 19 - which is a great place to be in. I hope that 2015 is an even better year for you.

    Cat from Outside Beauty, Inside Health

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  3. This was really lovely to read, it sure sounds like you have had a great year. I hope 2015 is just as good to you!!

    Holly | holly la beau

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